So I haven’t done a personal post in a while and I thought I’d update you on a few things to do with me. Last year at this time I wouldn’t have dreamed to be where I am today. I was full of self-doubt, had no self confidence in any aspect of myself and was generally struggling with stress, low moods and anxiety.
I have managed to go to University, move away from home, make friends, go to clubs, and just generally be more confident in my self in my appearance, in who I am and my abilities. These achievements might be minor to you but to me they are major steps. I quit my part-time job as that was pulling me away from my studies and was too far away and the shop I worked for in my home town was generally pulling my self confidence down as well as they generally did not give a sh*t about anyone who didn’t plan to stay on at the company (sorry but needed to be said). I passed my first semester with an overall 2:1 and so far I’ve achieved 1sts in 2 of my essays. I’m currently in my second semester doing OKAY but I do feel I could push myself more for these final exams before next year. I’ve made the greatest friends and even managed a relationship (6 months – shock horror) but most of all realise that I am a normal person who can speak to people and not be shy and awkward- I’ve even managed a few phone calls. I’ve gone out into clubs, done burlesque classes and applied for jobs and volunteering work. Again, minor achievements for most people but major achievements for me personally.
I’m really determined to make this blog successful, after 2 years of being a secret beauty blogger I “came out” to the people I know by making a Facebook page for it (click here if you haven’t already liked it) and inviting even family members to like and to read. Just through having more confidence and talking with other Bloggers (something I also never would have dreamed of) I’ve met some lovely people the past few months and founds some great blogs. I have even been invited to blog at Hull Fashion Week which is very exciting, I’ll probably do a blog post on its own about that one!
I have decided to lose some weight and generally feel healthier for real this time (now I’ve published it to the world I’m going to have to). I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with my weight but now I think is the time to change my lifestyle and just generally feel better and healthier. I don’t want to be a size 6 – I know that wont happen – I’d just like to feel more energetic and confident! Again, I will perhaps do a blog post on that one.
Overall I feel excited about the future and also proud of myself which is something I never did the past few years of my life. Sorry for the deep post – it wasn’t meant to be!